Thursday, March 21, 2013

A Desperate Scream

What is wrong with me?
Why do I take so many medicines?
What the Hell IS WRONG WITH ME?

Why do I cry to God in vain?
Why does he not see my agony?
Is it for my sins that I now pay?
This is Hell on Earth, no one takes it away. 

Am I psychotic? Insane? A criminal? A fraud?
Am I making up the vomit, the pain, the anguish?
Why am I dizzy, so tired, so weak?
Why is no one hearing my desperate scream?

Like Javert, I reach and fall.
Like him, the night grows ever near.
Will I follow in his footsteps
And wish to end it all?

Eli, Eli, lamma sabacthani me?